Tuesday, July 25, 2006

Open window of a moving vehicle


The open window of the vehicle I travel in is probably more interesting than the static viewpoint of the open window from my room. The images I receive keep changing, sometimes becoming a blur, sometimes lingering in my mind's eye even after a few kilometres stretch behind. The changes are rapid and often when stuck at a traffic signal, there's so much to see at any given time with the 180ยบ vision I get, that I have to shut my eyes to avoid information overload.

Natural filters in place, I can then focus on certain images that become fixtures of the locations, seeing them every time I travel that route. People I see often are the destitute. Am I indulging in armchair sympathy? With wheels beneath carrying me comfortably to earn the luxury of permitting myself this indulgence? Years of working in the world of journalism has taught me such indulgences can, with affectation, be wished away as occupational hazards. Which then transform into responsible, sensitive journalism. I am not calling myself a journalist or what I write news-worthy. I am only arming myself with a defense mechanism that helps to suppress my confusion when confronted with these very real sights. And yet I wish to write of them.

The Durgapur Bridge (did you know it's official name is Henry Louis Vivian DeRozio Setu?) (or DeRogio, as spelt on the commemorative plaque?!), that spans the railway and connects New Alipur and Chetla, provides lodging for three such destitute. There are two men who have been there for at least a year of my noticing. Both occupy space on the pavements diagonally opposite each other at either end of the bridge; are bearded, unkempt, coated in soot and dirt, but otherwise look healthy, even sustainably fed. They are both usually supine, their backs to the railings staring at the passing traffic. When it rains they have cast-off plastic sheets to protect them, and alongside, they keep their possessions in overfilled plastic shopping bags which also serve as pillows.

The man at the New Alipur end is younger, has alert eyes and a half-smile that does not have the signs of a rictus nor one belonging to the mentally handicapped. To me he seems observant and in the process of making space deep in his mind to store his findings. The older man at the Chetla end is quite obviously mentally unstable. I see him often enough eating food out of plastic bags, and sometimes standing at the edge of the footpath talking to the skies. Of late, their community has grown with the addition of a young woman. She has apparently displaced the younger man's perch, causing him to shift to the opposite side. She has no possessions, is mentally unsound from the looks of her, and is dressed in a black T-shirt and what seems to be a black and long, wraparound skirt. She takes no interest in the traffic and I see her wandering the New Alipur roundabout area, looking bemused at what she sees. People give her food as well and she eats it on the go. She appears to be a free spirit, unlike the lethargic men.

There are more such souls along the ways of my commutation. But the sights I see at either end of my journey are those that linger. And so that brings me to the Beleghata/Salt Lake crossroads on the Eastern Metropolitan Bye-Pass. This location has not the “character” which, let's say the New Alipur roundabout vibrates with, but it does have the presence of two other destitute men, characters in my mind's movie nevertheless.

Waiting for public transport at this crossing, I see a man in his late fifties, garbed in stained and soiled robes, similar cloth tied in a high turban beneath which flow wispy, graying locks of hair, framing a bearded face. He is bright-eyed, carries a long and slim bamboo pole as a staff, and a bulging plastic sack over his shoulder. He exudes the air of a dispossessed raja in his regal bearing. I watched him cross over the zebra lines to my side. He walked along the pavement and came to stand close by, apparently in wait, like all of us for transport. A young couple held their noses and moved away. He watched the oncoming traffic intently and then began to cross back over to the side he'd come from when he felt it safe to do so, pausing cautiously on the grass covered median separating the lanes of traffic. Having got to the other side, he once again watched the traffic zooming past, till he thought it safe enough to cross over back to my side. He was now a little distance away from me and he kept at this, making two more crossings till I finally got my bus.

The other man is roughly the same age, with a lean scrawny appearance, clothed in dirty shorts and a singlet. He moves very fast among the cars, but not more than twenty or thirty feet in every direction, muttering to himself as he slaps the sides of the vehicles rushing past. I must give credit to the drivers of the speeding vehicles who always manage to avoid banging into him as he smacks their metal sides. I wonder how bruised his hands must be.

Who are these citizens of nowhere? Who are they, who have forsaken, or been forsook? No easy, convenient answers are available to me. All I can do is to record my own observations.

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

Such an evening


It's been a long time, getting such an evening to my own. Not the kind after a tired, often wasted day. Then it's, get the hell away from where you are, however you can, specially when it's raining; back to one's own, not merely the familiar, but where one can lay claim on the integral. A part of me.

No, today, this evening, with a mind pleasantly splattered, after imparting enunciation, correcting pronunciation, tut-tutting (sympa-tutting?) appropriately to avoid getting run over by someone's elephantine neurosis, an airconditioned bus transports me to the opposite end of where I have been all day.

It has been awhile since I saw a typically Calcutta tropical sunset. The colours in a monsoon sky match the hues and shades of my mental being. Nothing seems to be what it is. The sunset retrieves dusty memories, a little rubbed over by the sandpaper of time. Nostalgia is a hurtful thing. Not always welcome when it appears without permission.

There's magic in the moment when open fields, fish farms glide past in the darkening east, as the psychedelic sunset paints a surrealistic backdrop to under-construction high-rises in the west. I like the windows on these new buses. Almost panoramic in their utility. Perhaps a bit tinted, a sort of dark violet which may also be distorting the colours of the sunset. Never mind.

A splattered mind needs but a suggestion to colour its world.

In those days of yore when the marijuana stoned you much more, when the colours excited you into verse, when music was tangible, when friendships were naive, when every evening had a differently brilliant sunset, when the future held no promise and was only a distant extension of the here and now, in those days one could not foresee that nostalgia would become a dull ache. Something to be wished away. Medicated, narcotised. Treasured memories were black and white snapshots. Not digitized pixels.

I have no hankering to return to the past, to relive it. Memories and nostalgia occupy too many gigs in my head. I don't need them. History should be just a well written story book. All that's relevant is the now. The present.

Even the future must wait till I get there.

Saturday, July 08, 2006

Open Window (not yet closed!)


a soft madness gets under the hair on my scalp. i itch. i scratch. harder. when there's some relief, the madness burrows through and invades my mind. its a soft sound my nails make on my scalp compared to the madness of the sound outside my open window. that is a conglomeration, even a conflagration of sounds, a compendium too.

how does one relate in words sounds that one can only feel? the sounds of traffic at a really busy crossroads with a bazar, railway station, a bus stand, packed residences cheek by jowl, and commercial establishments encircling it? could i perhaps, in some way cover the city with a reflecting dome that will bounce the sound back to us? send the smoke and pollution back to us? and the smells?

the dull roar of diesel engines straining to power their overburdened chassis... the whining of stressed gearshifts... manic horn blowers in the octaves from cacophony to richter-scale-wrecking craziness... the sharp popping of 2-stroke auto rickshaw engines... arguments that the drivers of these pests have with their disgruntled passengers... the enthusiastic chanting of 'bolo hari, hari bol' by "shawshan bondhu" as they carry a corpse to the ever-burning pyres of keoratala for its transit to the cycle of rebirth... hysterically barking dogs maddened at the intrusion of an unfamiliar smell... the frenetic whingeing of police sirens, frantic ambulances... the sounds of life unable to hesitate, painstakingly moving on.

and the smells that drift in through the window. unburnt motor fuels, freshly rained-on earth some miles away, the noisome garbage truck labouring past, covered by plastic, under which wisps and fragments of everybody's leavings reject recycling, littering the street. fish frying, smoke wafting up from a cigarette being puffed below. a whiff of synthetic sandalwood from the incense lit in a creeping taxi. the smell of decay and devoutness. the odour of contemptuous familiarity giving way to the scent of the unknown.

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and i'm trying to listen to my music over all this. music played loud enough to disturb the inmates in my home. something they can object to since they cannot do the same outside the windows. headphones become necessary but irritating. the sounds outside not only filter in, they actually override the music quite easily.

"look what they've done to my song, ma.../ it's the only thing i could do half right / and it's turning out all wrong, ma / look what they've done to my song. / Look what they've done to my brain, ma.../ well, they've picked it out like a chicken bone / till i think i'm half insane, ma / look what they've done to my song. / wish i could find a good book to live in.../ well, if i could find a really good book / i'd never have to come out and look at / what they've done to my song." melanie from the 70s sounds so appropriate.

as does jim capaldi doing 'eve', billy preston telling me 'that's the way god planned it' and that '(he) wrote a simple song'. leon russell wandering as a 'stranger in a strange land', and then him and joe cocker 'cry(ing) me a river'. until the blistering guitars of zappa, roy buchanan, duane allman, alvin lee and to round it off, jimi, douse the noise completely. i can now sleep.

if only the sodium-vapour street lamp wasn't so intrusive between the fluttering drapes...

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

The Asian Age

I unabashedly, unashamedly provide a link to an article in The Asian Age of 4th July 2006, in which a childhood friend of mine, David McMahon - journalist, author ("Vegemite Vindaloo"), more importantly 'Parish Boy' and my cohort on many jungle trips of centuries ago, has written a rather moving article about my sister! The article is called "The Tale of Kolkata's Samaritan". Clink on the link below to read it. And if you would like to know the kind of stuff that Dave blogs, go here.

(Sorry the link won't work as it was available only for the day of publication/posting. Added to which is the inconvenience of being able to view it only on IE. So if you're Firefox or alternative inclined like me, give it a miss. The Asian Age)

So here's the original piece copy/pasted for your reading pleasure:

The Asian Age (July/4/2006 12:30:39 AM)

The tale of Kolkatas Samaritan

Ive known Dr Ishika Ghose since I was six and she was about five. Fortunately, she never kept to her threat of removing my appendix without anaesthetic.

Being the sort of person that she is, her goal is something that has never been achieved before. She has already begun to raise funds to ensure that Kolkata, that heartlifting city where she and I were born, gets a world-class childrens hospital.

As she points out, there are childrens hospitals in the city but the services offered are "incomplete and fragmented." There are two crucial aspects to the hospital she envisages comprehensive services, at an affordable price.

A crore, she says, "would do very nicely to start with." It would fund a ward, one step in the journey to founding a hospital.

As a young doctor, she spent time in England, a phase that dictated her lifes direction. "One of the most comfortable aspects," she says, "of working in the much-maligned National Health Service, was never having to worry about who was paying the bills. I remember a senior nurse in a childrens ward giving me an entire box full of intravenous cannulas and telling me to get an IV line into a child with difficult veins."

Funding just wasnt an issue. "When things went wrong as they sometimes did, horribly wrong, you didnt spend sleepless nights worrying about how the family would cope with the mounting bills. You could spend that time worrying about the child and reading as much as you could about its problems."

But that experience was just the start of her journey. Dr Ghose is back in Kolkata, working at not one hospital, but two. One of those hospitals is the Rabindranath Tagore International Institute of Cardiac Sciences in Kolkata.

"A couple of years ago," she says, "this hospital got a very generous grant of seven crores from the Armenian Church Trust Fund and started the general (non-cardiac services) unit. This includes general surgery, orthopaedics, neurosurgery, urology and trauma."

But as Dr Ghose points out, there is just one stumbling block. "There are no paediatric services, apart from paediatric cardiology and cardiothoracic surgery." In her own words, she "barged in" there about a year ago and started general paediatric surgery.

So why do they need more money? There is a prolonged silence and I begin to fear for my own appendix. But Dr Ghose reaches not for her scalpel, rather for her inescapable logic. "There are no dedicated paediatric services in this hospital, insofar as we neither have a paediatric ward, nor paediatric intensive care, nor paediatric nurses. Children, including babies, are cared for in adult units. As all of us who are doctors know, children do better on wards and units specially geared to their needs.

"Childrens services have already been assigned the floor space in the new building. But until we can raise the money for equipping it, thats all it remains empty, useless floor space. The money we raise will be used for equipment and to train nursing staff and junior doctors."

She explains that the hospital caters primarily to the middle class. "Parents of a large percentage of children who need surgery, pay only for their medicines and consumables. Thats all their families can afford. They dont pay for their stay or the operating theatre or doctors fees. I know because 50 per cent or more of my patient load is made up of these families. They cannot all go to the government hospitals, mainly because of the bed crisis. There are not enough beds and never will be."

There was another epiphany for Dr Ghose. Despite her years of study and experience, nothing had prepared her to answer the most crucial question asked so frequently of her by parents. The question? "How much will this cost?"

"Worst of all," she says, "the most challenging patients were the poorest. So I started waiving my fees, cajoling my anaesthetist to waive her fees and pleading with the director to reduce hospital charges. As you can imagine, I was no ones favourite paediatric surgeon. But we were operating on children and the vast majority of them were getting better."

Even Ria and Pulak got better after free surgery. Ria was two years old, with only one normal eye and a distorted mouth. Pulak was 13 and lived in a village with his widowed mother. He had been horribly burned when he fell on an oil lamp. His chin, bottom lip and neck were fused to his chest, but photographs taken after the first round of surgery show him smiling.

Their tales bring tears to Dr Ghoses eyes. "You cannot talk to me," she says, "about profit and loss within a hospital and show me a balance sheet and say paediatrics and paediatric surgery are really not making us any money. Are the only parameters to measure progress in India the stock-market index, IT companies, Bollywood films or Indian designers?

"At the end of the day all we have is our children and our grandchildren ? none of my own, but all mine and all yours anyway."

For details on how to donate, email Dr Ishika Ghose at ishikaghose@gmail.com

Monday, July 03, 2006

Let's really open up open source





I am neither a nerd or a geek. Nor am I technologically qualified to talk or even do anything very significant when the topic of computers comes up. However, I am very keen on the applications I can use on my computer to make its use pleasurable, easy and productive. I have no real understanding of Microsoft's almost manic clutch on computing, but I am willing to bow to superior knowledge on this issue.

What I am happy about is the Open Source movement. It certainly reflects the potential that the Internet was first conceived with. A community of developers working together and in harmony, to ensure that the use of the Internet remains free and available to the widest possible range of users, apart from making it a convenient medium for progressive communication.

And so I have software on my computer which replaces the Windows shell graphics-from-boredom. It is far too expensive to purchase a copy of MS Office, and the pirated copies pose too much of a risk, so I have downloaded OpenOffice which has never failed to bring me superb, and more than comparable facilities and pleasant surprises every time I use it, which is every day. I prefer Mozilla's Firefox browser and their Seamonkey mail client. I wish I could make sense of Linux to be able to use that instead of Windows, or at least had friends who do use it and would show me what's what.

But I do have an axe to grind about open source developers and those who make their work available for free.

For one, they assume that anyone who downloads and intends to use their work, is a person who knows whatever there is to know about programming. They have a condescending tone in their Readme.txt files which pisses me off, apart from confusing me no end. For example, take the Clipart facility of OO. They don't include it in the program so you need to download it as a separate application. That done, you are suddenly informed by the resident ghost of Bill Gates on your comp that it cannot open the SVG files which make up the clipart. So, you google and come up with the interesting but trivial information that it is Scalable Vector Graphics. Great, but still serving no purpose. Then you are confused by lots of other information, one of which tells you that a programming language called Python is used for SVG. So you dutifully download this as well, only to discover that the buggers who worked it all out haven't really given much thought to people like me who don't know what the hell they're talking of, one; and second, what the hell to do with it, other than to take a crash course in C, C+ or C++ or whatever babel they are spouting these days.

It's at times like this that I miss the user-friendliness of MS. Simply click on a few buttons like "yes", "no", "finished", after committing your heart and soul to the Gatesian EULA and impatiently indemnifying that millionaire and his company without actually reading the bloody thing, and you're done. It all works fine and satisfactorily till the virus hits you unexpectedly, your computer crashes, you regret buying it from a vendor who invariably delays his service till you are a frustrated, nervous wreck, and then you never learn from your mistakes but install another pirated copy of an MS program to allow history to repeat itself.


Therefore, hence, and so forth, I have tried to install open source programs / applications and I have so far not been affected by viruses, and hope to keep it that way.


There is one request that I would like to make to open source developers. Don't talk AT people like me. Be kind. Just in case you didn't know, we support your endeavours, and we do want an open, sharing community in this global village of ours. So do stuff that need not make it essential for ignoramuses like me to be able to program. Give us a couple of buttons to click and we're happy, we don't actually want much.

Let's really open up open source.